We have all had that one makeup product we have lusted over for ages and never quite got round to buying; that one product that appeals to your very soul but for some reason or another, whether it be lack of cash or just not having a justifiable reason to purchase it e.g. I’ve had a bad day, I need to treat myself or I’ve had a good day, I need to treat myself. For me, the item that I had desired and wanted since November was Jeffree Starr’s liquid lipstick in ‘Dirty Money’. I had seen people on the makeup groups looking gorgeous in it; I admired them as I silently observed the long line of selfies with this gorgeous shade thinking; this is MY colour, I need it in my life. I added it to my wish list and resisted to urge to buy it before Christmas thinking my hubby might get it, he didn’t. When asked ‘What do you want for your birthday?’; I would instantly say Dirty Money, but then 30 seconds later I would retract the statement replacing it with an alternative (one of them being Jeffree Starr’s ‘Sagittarius’ because ‘It was limited edition and I might never be able to get it again’). I would always have a more sensible or practical alternative, either something I would get more everyday use from or something I needed replacing. I kept on adding it to my basket, only to click on something else about ten minutes later and forget about the virtual basket; don’t you just love virtual makeup shopping? (its like when you used to browse the Argos catalogue at home for toys you wanted if you had infinite pocket money).
So here I was, four months later and still without the lipstick I was lusting after, still seeing fantastic pictures of beautiful ladies wearing it as both lipstick and eyeliner, still putting it off. It took the need for an empty eye shadow palette for my pressed glitters to tip me over the grey area of virtual shopping to actually having it land on my doorstep the next day. I was beyond excited to try it out; but it was a weekday and there was no chance I could get away with green lipstick at work, I would be in trouble quicker then a makeup addict breaking a spending ban at the sight of their favourite brand having a bogof offer. So, I had the long, arduous wait till Saturday, when, I could finally wear it and elevate myself into the beautiful, green lipstick wearing, goddess that I believed I truly was. However, as with many things, often what you dream the moment would be like and what actual happens in reality are two very different things. Maybe it was the fact I chose a green eye to go with it; but in the words of my makeup friends when I sent them the picture ‘You can never wear enough green,’ harking to the fact that green is somewhat a signature look for me. But, I still felt slightly disappointed as I looked at myself in the mirror; I had waited months longing for it and now that it finally graced my lips I felt underwhelmed I had this sense of disappointment. I though that this colour would be my ‘go to weekend’ lippy but instead I find myself gravitating back to the bright, bold colours or the grey/mauve nudes that suit me so well (Scorpio by Jeffree Starr is my ultimate lipstick).
So, what I’m getting at here is; maybe I didn’t, really, need it in the way that I initially thought when I saw beautiful women wearing this lipstick shade. Don’t get me wrong I will still definitely wear it and I have yet to try it as eyeliner; but sometimes expectation and reality are two different beasts. I definitely think that the whole feeling of disappointment after lusting after the product for several months has made me consider how I makeup shop in future. As my makeup collection grows, I am definitely going to ask; do I need it? Will I wear it often enough? Am I letting my impulsive, inner child take over much like I did with the Argos catalogue when I was seven? Am I giving in to hype? Would my makeup be better off with this product? I might sound like a lot of questions to ask but how many times have you bought stuff you thought you needed and it’s still sat in the drawer, unused?